Thiiis sucks, thiiiis sucks, la la la la, thiiis sucks.

Thiiis suck ass, thiiis sucks ass, la la la la thiiiiis sucks ass.

Parents suck, parents suck, la la la la parents suck.

Im bored, im bored do me in the ass im bored.

this sucks ass this sucks ass kiss my ass this sucks ass....

 THAT'S RIGHT F**K U, F**K U WITH SOMETHING LONG, HARD, AND SANDPAPERY!!!!!!!!!!!!! 
YEAH THATS RIGHT MONKEY BITCHES!!

F**k u,
~Lisha

Some things i'd like to change....

1. I really wish people wouldn't backstab me so much. I wanna trust people, but it's so hard to. When i do people turn around and hurt me or piss me off.

2. I wish my parents would be more understanding about some things. Like the effort i put into school, and how hard things really are for me sometimes. I just wish they could be me for a little and see what it's like. It's so much harder and different to be a teenager then it was for them. I know for a fact.

3. I wish people didn't blame me for everything. Even if they don't directly blame me, then indirectly hint that it's my fault, causing me to blame myself anyway

4. I wish Thomas didn't have to go away to college. I'm gunna miss him SO MUCH. I almost wanna go with him. lol.

5. I really wish there wasn't so much drama in my life. Girls r so freaking caty. This is why one of my best friends is a guy. lol. My other best friend i've now decided is katie cooper. Thats girl is amazing. lol i've known her for two years. She is not caty at all. But she's in Mexico now, and i miss her so. lol.

6. I wish my parents would treat me like i'm 16 and let me do a little bit more. But they're great parents and i love them so. They just need to except the fact that im growing up, and i need to be a little more responsible. I know surprising to admit right. yeah

That' pretty much it right now. More later! Tootles!
<3 Lisha

ps. hangin with my other friend Katie Vancleft (sorry if i spelled it wrong lol) i can't wait! I miss her!!

Things have been SOO much better with Thomas, like seriously. I finally told him, and we worked it out. He told me that i was irreplacable. I was like aww. He made me feel so important. <3 
On the other hand...last night he asked me if we could hang out, like go to the movies or something. I told him not to get his hopes up because my rents said never plan anything for friday's. Yeah i know rele dumb. But anyway. We were gunna go @ 7, but then bri called me and invited me to an earlier movie. My parents like the earlier one better, so i called Thomas and told him. Then he said he might be late, and im like okay, just call me and tell me what's going down. (lol) 
So while i was sitting in the car waiting for melissa and bri, Thomas called and said, he'd be late. The movie started at 4:45, and he said if he should come, he'd be there around 5. and i said that was fine. Then he asked the name of the movie. i told him "Blades of Glory" (Which was very good might i add) Then he started telling me how he didnt wanna see that movie, and how he'd be miserable and bored. Well, since he's leaving for Utah tomorrow for a week, i won't get to see him, so i really wanted to hang out with him. I told him he could just come to see me. But, he eventually said he wasn't coming. I wanted to cry. He noticed that i was upset though and asked if i was okay. I just said i really wanted to see him before he left but i couldn't. And he's just like "I'd be miserable." Ever hear the saying 'dont judge a book by it's cover' ?  Well, yeah, he didn't even know if he was gunna like it, so might as well go and see if u like it. But he didn't which made me upset. And not to mention that HE asked ME if i wanted to go to the movies and hang out, and i didn't even hang out with him. 
So all in all i'm dissapointed and a little upset. But i'm used to it, people have been doing it to me ever since elemetry school. But i never expected something like that from my best friend. </3

***Thought of the day*** Dont assume that things will happen just cause someone says they will.

<3 Lisha

So, I'm reading this book call "the luckiest girl in the world." It's really good. I get depressed when i read it though for certain reasons i'd rather not discuss. *sigh* I'm kinda blah, and i'm thinking a lot.When i think a lot and i'm blah, i tend to act, like, weird, like i'm depressed and i don't feel like myself. 
Since i'm hanging out with Thomas today, i might be better later. I'll talk to him. I have to go shopping now, so i'll write more later.
<3 Lisha

Hey, listen annie, i'm sorry for what i said too. I really don't like fighting with you either. If we have issues we should just talk about them and not yell them. I said a lot of things i shouldn't have, and yes, i was being imature too i'm not gunna lie. We can work this out. It was a stupid argument for a stupid reason and it never should've happened. So I'm sorry as well.
<3 Lisha

Well, i have questions. Questions that always run through my head. Some cant be answered. A big question i tend to ask myself is why? Why do things have to pile up on me? Why do my friends backstab me? Why do my parents lash out on me? Why do my actions always get me in trouble? I tend to think that if i left, no one would notice. My mind is so complex, i've noticed that. I think about EVERYTHING full out. The only people who i think would care are prolly my parents and my family. Out of my friends, Thomas definitely would. He told me that he'd have a mental breakdown if anything really serious happened to me. (aww<3) Then there's casey, maybe. I don't know if anyone else would really care, cuz they always use me, and walk all over me. They trick me into thinking that they're my friends, and i believe them, but they always end up hurting me. This is where the why's come in. Why do they do this to me? I must've done something for them to actually LIKE making me upset. Cuz obviously they don't care. Now i'm down to one best friend, which i really don't care. I really don't. Because, as long as I have Thomas as my one and only true best friend i will be completely fine. And i really mean completely and totally fine. Cause honestly, i trust him the most out of all of my friends, and i mean ALL OF THEM. I mean, i know A LOT of different people from different places, and some longer than others, but let's face it, this is Thomas we're talking about. You can't get any better than THE THOMAS!!! lol I mean seriously, you have to love the kid, and if you don't, you don't know him well enough or you have very serious mental problems and u need help lol. (I love how the subject changed from questioning things, to Thomas, which is a much better subject.) Anyway, yeah, take your best friend, and like multiply them by like a bazillion trillion million (haha lol) and that won't come close to him. Hmmm, shutup, you know ur WAY jealous. Yes you are. YOU KNOW U ARE DONT DENY IT!!! Ha! i AM right and U are SO wrong!! lol Anyway, we have to start, I MEAN STOP talking about Thomas for a minute lol. I HAVE to tell you what ANNIE did to me today. Talk about IMATURITY!!! So i was walking to math class right, and honestly, i didn't even notice that she was passing me until i looked at her and she gives me the finger! SHE GAVE ME THE FINGER!!! Well, you know my response to that was "wtF was that!?" But i didn't care! I really didn't, and Becca, screw her too, cuz if the bitch sisters (my new nickname for them) are gunna be, well, bitches, then i don't need them, then they can suck it, suck it long, and suck it HARD! Or as Thomas and i would say, F u, F u with something long, hard, and sandpapery!!! lol. Well enough drama for tonight, will update tomorrow if anything else happens.
<3 Lisha

Little girl, little girl, here you are again, lost in the insanity of the world today. 
Unwanted you feel, but words seem different, they agree with your heart.
Not good enough? Of course your not, what else is new?
Thoughts run through your head...
When was the last time you were truly happy?
No recollection.
You thought your life would be worth something to someone, but it's not.
You feel unloveable, yet no one understands.
You question who really loves you, if they love you for something, or if it's just fake.
These questions run through your head little girl.
You've lost. 
You lost everything.
You've lost the game, the game of life.
Should you give up on life for good? 
Or should you suffer with the none of your kind?
Which is worse?
Little girl, little girl, you've lost your world.

<3 Lisha